It's funny how being a victim of random violence can have an effect on your psyche. I feel like a rape-victim, I'm such a wreck and the police don't even care. I feel compelled to blame societal norms and standards... I'm not sure I can accurately convey the feeling of looking at the police nodding while I, the manager as well as some of the wait staff at the restaurant are explaining how I literally just sat down and placed a to-go order when some psycho just beats the back of my skull in out of no where. I look like a guy that can take of himself, I talk like it but I'm not Jason Bourne. I don't expect to catch a beating in a city I've only lived in for a few months, I don't ever go out so I have no enemies here... Or so I thought.
*sigh*
I ask myself "why?! WTF did I do?! Did I walk wrong? Did I dress offensively?! Am I just too fucking pretty?!?!?" My vision still hasn't restored completely so every time I notice that fogginess in my vision my mind time travels to what it was like looking at my beer just lost in my own thoughts when suddenly I'm getting attacked. They never even arrested the guy.
I have an enormous audition coming up I've been prepping for. I've gone through so much to get here and this has shaken me up but I'm healing. My stories help me, I wish I could be as strong as some my characters, maybe I am but it sure doesn't feel like it sometimes
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Been getting my next few scenes set up for Chapter 2. Let's just say I'm not the only one upset at circumstances beyond my control.